but you’re starting to get attached. & because you’re attached, you are being clingy. & because you are being clingy, you think you are being annoying cause you want to talk to them so much. & because you think you’re being annoying, you feel like you’re bothering them every time you talk to them. But really, you just enjoy talking to them. But you’re afraid they’re getting bored & sick of hearing from you.
Waiting for a reply, waiting for a first move to be made, waiting for you to talk to me because I don’t want to be the one to break the silence every time. What I hate even more is how vulnerable I feel when I wait for you, knowing that I’m waiting for the impossible, but there’s nothing else I can do. The more I try to keep myself occupied, the more I catch myself wondering if you’re waiting on me too.
Guys are there for you. They don’t talk shit about you and they don’t start useless drama with you. Other people may think “oh she’s sucha slut she always hangs out with guys”, but no. That doesn’t make you a slut, it’s because you’d rather be around people who are straight up with you rather than fake bitches. And they’ve rather spend their time having fun instead of wasting time gossiping and talking shit.
You’re the only one who I wouldn’t mind losing sleep for, the only one who I can never get tired of talking to, and the only one who crosses my mind constantly throughout the day. You’re the only one who can make me smile without trying, bring down my mood without the intention to and affect my emotions with every action of yours. I can’t explain with just words how much you mean to me but you’re the one I’m afraid of losing and the one I want to keep in my life.
Ever had that? Ever received a text message from someone, whether you woke up to it, got it during the day or before you ended your night & you looked at your phone & saw this long message, filled with words that hurt you, that completely changed your mood, that stopped you from breathing & put you in total disbelief? That everything you guys went through just ended by that text message? Crazy how a simple text message can make you feel complicated inside.